if he had been with me

Used Paperback 

If He Had Been with Me is a Young Adult romance novel by Laura Nowlin about two inseparable childhood friends, Autumn and Finny (Phineas), who drift apart in high school due to unspoken feelings and a misunderstanding. The story is told from Autumn's perspective, beginning with Finny's tragic death and flashing back to the four years of high school, during which Autumn and Finny navigate separate social lives while dealing with grief and the "what ifs" of their relationship. The book explores themes of love, loss, regret, and the importance of communication.